完结

                         “其实现在想想，还是那个时候多轻松啊。”依依的眼神之中带了点迷茫，“你说，如果当年我像你一样留在这个城市或者是跟着他到他所在的城市，结果会不会就会不一样？”                                                                                                             他，指得应该就是陈亮吧。                                                                                                             初恋总是让人难忘的，更何况依依和陈亮还在一起了四年，其中的情感，就算是想忘，也很难真的能够忘记得掉吧。                                                                                                             我摇头。                                                                                                             “我也不知道。”                                                                                                             这种如果的事情是谁又能真正清楚的，也许这样一来依依和陈亮能够牵手到最后，但是也有可能会出现其他的状况而分手。                                                                                                             “当然这也只是想想而已，我和他都已经结婚了，甚至都已经有了小孩，想这么多也没有什么意思了。”                                                                                                             依依笑，表情之中有点释然但是又有点纠结。                                                                                                             我知道，那是一种万不得已而对现实妥协的感觉，因为无望，所以也就只能够妥协了。                                                                                                             “他现在对我也很好，千依百顺的，我不应该想太多的，一个nv人能够有这么一个丈夫已经不错了，就像是人家说的那样，自己喜欢的人是用来ai的，喜欢自己的人是用来嫁的。”依依戳了戳我的脑门，“那么喜欢你的人，你还真不打算嫁是吧？”                                                                                                             我囧然，这个话题突然一转，居然又跑到了我的身上来，这让我多纠结啊。                                                                                                             “知道了知道了。”                                                                                                             我含糊着。                                                                                                             依依站起了身。                                                                                                             “我想在去其他地方看看，你是要和我一起，还是自己来？”她问我。                                                                                                             “自主参观就行，等会不是还有饭局么？”我笑，反正溜一圈就得回教室集合，我想我还是自己来吧，我也有一个地方想要去看看来着。                                                                                                             依依也不勉强，自己先行走开了。                                                                                                             我要去的地方是在我们以前nv生宿舍楼附近，哪里有一个凉亭，在很长一段时间里面，我特别喜欢去哪里，尤其是在夜幕降临的时候，只是每一次都会可惜杭州的天空已经被侵蚀了，极少能够看到满天星辰的样子。                                                                                                             凉亭里面有石桌石凳，在那张石桌上，我曾经很不厚道地破坏了学校的公物，以坏了七八支笔的代价刻下了一句话。                                                                                                             但是现在看看，和我一样破坏公物的人还真的是不少，石桌上面刻了很多乱七八糟的东西，什么“到此一游”或者“xxx，你怎么不去si”其中还有回答“因为我还想活”这种字迹。                                                                                                             我闭上眼，摩挲着我当年刻下那句话的地方，那上面还有印记，但是已经显得模糊不堪了。                                                                                                             “我很想你，阿墨”                                                                                                             这是我偷偷记下的心情，用这个祭奠了我的ai情，现在想来，天真的可笑。                                                                                                             但是……                                                                                                             我慢慢地摩挲下去，在我当初刻下那句话的下面也有人刻下了一句话，我觉得自己现在这种行为还真的有点阅读盲文的味道。                                                                                                             “我”“会”“一”“直”“在”“你”“身”“边”                                                                                                             我睁开眼。                                                                                                             看着在我当年刻得字迹下面，有人刻了一句话，也多少有点模糊不堪了，但是依稀可以辨识，那下面写的是“我会一直在你身边，李澈”。                                                                                                             50                                                                                                             50、第五十章 ...                                                                                                             在看到石桌上刻的那一句话的时候，我不可能是完全无动于衷的。                                                                                                             要怎么形容我的人生呢，曾经我以为是我喜欢的人不懂我的感情，就像我不明白ai我的并且一直陪在我身边的那个男人对我的感情一样。                                                                                                             我不知道当时的李澈是用怎么样的一种心态刻下这句话的，他从来没有说过这种话，他一向不轻易地把自己的情感宣泄出来。                                                                                                             曾经在步履蹒跚行走的我身后，一直有人默默地贯彻着他的承诺，从未离开。                                                                                                             眼角之中多少有点酸涩的味道，我何德何能能够让一个男人如此待我。                                                                                                             口袋里面的电话响起，我有些木然地接起电话，电话是文雅打过来的，电话那一头的声音有点吵闹，但是还是能够听得出她电话里面声音兴奋。                                                                                                             “赶紧回来，这画面忒经典了，你要是错过，你会后悔si的。”                                                                                                             我不知道到底是出了什么事情让这个nv人如此的兴奋。                                                                                                             等到我回到教室的时候，文雅很兴奋很哈皮地拉住了我。“嗷，李澈这男人实在是太萌了，你知道么？”文雅向我汇报，“刚刚江尚远那si小子给了他一张名片，然后很洋洋得意地说自己是什么什么企业的高级主管。你家男人只说了一句话就让那小子哑口无言了。”                                                                                                             “你男人说‘对不起，我个人认为只有经理级别以上的才算是高级主管’，当场让那小子脸se和青菜似的。”                                                                                                             文雅拉着我，在一角看着那两个男人用眼神厮杀得你si我活，接着又开了口:“接着你家男人把自己的名片给了那家伙，那家伙一看，脸se纠结万分，原本还想着在反驳一回来着，于是就问你男人是不是自己创业的。你男人说是。”                                                                                                             “那小子就可神气了，说年纪轻轻自己创业的基本上都是家里面有点底的，都是靠了父母才有自己现在的成就，看他那样子似乎是富二代，如果他家里面有钱，他现在的成就一定b李澈还要来的好一类的话。李澈只用了一句话就秒杀了那家伙！！”                                                                                                             文雅揪着我的爪子，揪的特别的用力，好像刚刚把江尚远顶的一句话都说不出来人不是李澈而是她自己一样。                                                                                                             “你男人说，‘或者我应该为你的家境不如我，或是你的现在的成就不如我而感到抱歉’。”文雅学着李澈的腔调说话，“你男人的嘴巴实在太毒了，但是毒的好萌撒……我第一次见到江尚远那小子恨不能一头撞si的样子，当时有多少人在偷笑你知道么！”                                                                                                             我点头，李澈的嘴巴毒我早就已经领教过了，但是真的是第一次觉得李澈的嘴毒是那么的可ai一件事情，萌得要si要活的。                                                                                                             我完全可以想象现在江尚远那个男人心底到底是有多么的纠结，我想他现在一定万分的后悔为什么要来参加这一次的同学会了。                                                                                                             李澈走了过来，看着我，文雅很识趣地走开了。                                                                                                             “听说你刚刚很威风？”我看着李澈问着。                                                                                                             “恩，你们班上有个人很有趣。”李澈嘴角带着笑意，“听说这几年同学会上他一直很大出风头，你一向是被打压的那个？”                                                                                                             这个话题一定是文雅对他说的吧，我想。                                                                                                             “报复什么的，太可耻了，”我说，报复神马的，真的是太不厚道了，“虽然那人我很早就很想一拳打上去了。”                                                                                                             “那我去道歉？”李澈挑眉看我。                                                                                                             我摇头，这一次的报复很大快人心，看在班级其他人都很满意的份上，还是允许这种行径存在的。                                                                                                             “李澈，我有话要对你说，”我深x1了一口气，像是豁出去一样说着。                                                                                                             “等一下，我先出去一下，等回来你再说。”                                                                                                             李澈像是拍宠物一样拍了拍我的头，然后就想往着门口走。                                                                                                             “不行！”我拔高了声音，我好不容易积聚起来的勇气，要是现在不说，我等会哪有勇气说，过了这村就没有这店了。                                                                                                             我不g！                                                                                                             我拉着李澈的衣角，眼神坚决。                                                                                                             “我很急。”李澈压低了声音对我说。                                                                                                             “那我也很急！”                                                                                                             我扯衣角的力度越发的用力，不管是什么样的急事，相b较而言还是我b较紧急一点，而且nv士优先不是么！                                                                                                             “我问你，你还愿不愿意娶我？”我认认真真地问，“我这一次很认真地回答你，只要你肯娶我，我就愿意嫁给你。”                                                                                                             李澈低下头看着我。                                                                                                             “你确定？”                                                                                                             我点头。                                                                                                             “凌墨，我一旦结婚，基本上不会有离婚的可能出现，你想清楚再回答我。”李澈双手放在我的肩膀上。                                                                                                             “对，趁着我现在很确定，你到底要不要娶我？”                                                                                                             我咬牙，反正这么多年都被他的毒舌荼毒过来了，也不怕再被多荼毒几年了。                                                                                                             “你都已经b婚了，我能不娶么？”李澈有些无可奈何，“我向你求婚的时候你不答应，非得当着全班的面b婚才觉得有型么？”                                                                                                             呃……                                                                                                             班级里面寂静无声，就算当年教授在讲台上讲课的时候都没有这么寂静过，这种寂静让我觉得有点头皮发麻。                                                                                                             我缩在李澈的怀里，紧紧地巴住他的衣襟，心理面默念着刚刚b婚那货绝对不是我绝对不是我……                                                                                                             “阿墨，你先松一下手，我想去趟洗手间。”李澈靠在我耳边低声说。                                                                                                             no!                                                                                                             我si命摇头，失去了这棵大树姐会无所遁形，姐会被全班的目光给杀si的，这种经历当年有过一次了，现在无需再来一次。                                                                                                             后来，我当然不敢再留在同学会上，背后被人作为谈资议论反正我也听不见，但是我可不想被人在当做猴子一样指指点点的。                                                                                                             据说当天晚上班上群里面有人就开始八卦了，群公告甚至还改成了“同学会上凌墨彪悍b婚，为事业成功人士李某哀悼”。                                                                                                             去***那群混蛋！                                                                                                             我看着那群公告在那边磨牙。                                                                                                             我老娘对于我终于肯嫁人的消息表示很震撼，更震撼的是我要嫁给李澈。                                                                                                             在接到李澈电话通知的那天晚上，我妈过了一会又打了电话给我。                                                                                                             她说。                                                                                                             “李澈这孩子估计是一时冲动，你得小心点他选择反悔这条路子。”                                                                                                             我当时的反应是……                                                                                                             我弟凌砚也很高兴。                                                                                                             他说：“姐，我发现你结婚我还有个小舅子的红包可以收，告诉我姐夫，我对此很期待。”                                                                                                             我当时的反应还是……                                                                                                             后来我也见过靳骐两次。一次在结婚前，一次在结婚时。                                                                                                             这个其实可以忽略不计。                                                                                                             在结婚的前一个月，我看着自己空空的右手突然想起了一件事情。                                                                                                             “李澈，戒指呢？”我问他，在我的右手上应该有戒指的存在才对，“我可不可以要求tiffany的？”                                                                                                             “我记得当时是你向我求婚的吧？”李澈看了我一眼，一点不为所动。                                                                                                             “所以？”我虚心求教。                                                                                                             “谁求婚谁给戒指，”李澈手一摊，“请送我tiffany的戒指。”                                                                                                             “……”                                                                                                             我突然觉得我老娘的话是错的，想要后悔的人应该是我才对。                                                                                                             “能用周大福的么？或者是老凤祥？”我在思索了一下tiffany的价位之后，做出了一个良心建议，“咱不能太过奢侈不是？”                                                                                                             再后来，我就成了李涵的妈妈，很自然而然的。                                                                                                             51                                                                                                             51、番外（1） ...                                                                                                             我一直不懂为什么李澈就那么想要把孩子的名字叫做“李涵”，这个问题直到我怀上了之后才开口问了。                                                                                                             为什么要等怀上了才问呢，因为这个时候都已经成了既定事实，无可更改了。                                                                                                             于是，我m着还算是平坦的肚子问李澈。                                                                                                             “五行缺水”                                                                                                             李澈表情有点纠结。                                                                                                             “如果是五行缺水的话，那你好朋友林淼淼不是缺得厉害？”他反问我。                                                                                                             我想了想，觉得挺有道理的，于是在某一个和林淼淼见面的时候，我把李澈说的话如实和林淼淼说了。                                                                                                             林淼淼一拍桌子，“他才五行缺水呢，他全家都缺！”                                                                                                             我很苍凉远目了一下。                                                                                                             我肚子里面的孩子就是李澈家的一个成员。                                                                                                             最后，这话题还是不了了之了，直到小包子李涵出生的时候我才知道，这一代的孩子轮到“涵”字辈，但是李澈是李家的独苗苗，所以小包子也可以算是独苗苗，他觉得“涵”这个字挺好，g脆就直接取名叫“李涵”。                                                                                                             李涵未出生之前曾经遭遇了一次重大的变故，差一点我和李澈就失去了这个孩子。                                                                                                             婚后我也一度想要找一份工作，可前一份工作b较轻松的缘故，要我一直朝九晚五，我觉得夏天还能够吃得消，要是等到冬天……                                                                                                             我想我会过分贪恋被窝的柔软，于是婚后闲来无事的我在林淼淼的指导之下，在某个网站开始发表一些ai情小说，当然的，其中很多故事是真实的，但是更多故事是虚构的。                                                                                                             小说嘛，总是真假参半的。                                                                                                             写了一段时间之后，我还算是有点人气，虽然也有那么一两个读者和不屑，我码字速度不快，更新速度也顶多就是一日一更，偶尔还隔日更，也真难为那些个读者一直跟着我。                                                                                                             写啊写的，姐居然还觉得写出了点成就感来，后来g脆建了群，天天和读者交流，偶尔还会上yy玩耍一下。