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谁说的？”我别开眼，不去看李澈。                                                                                                             李澈没有开口说话，我也没有，车子里面静谧的就像黑暗一样，唯一剩下的就是彼此之间的呼x1声。                                                                                                             “哼……”                                                                                                             李澈的轻笑声打破了这氛围，他的声音像是嘲讽一样，听在我耳中觉得特别的刺耳，也许是在嘲笑我刚刚明明没有人看见却还要转来脸，就像那个时候靳骐刚离开的时候我g的哪些囧事一样，他的笑声，像是针扎一样让人特别的难堪。                                                                                                             我像是要证明自己一样，从黑暗之中伸出手，揽住了李澈的脖颈，倾过了身，在这没有一点光线的氛围里面准确地贴上了他的唇，描绘着他的唇形，然后有些迟疑地想要探入。                                                                                                             李澈的身t有些僵y，任由我动作着。                                                                                                             他的味道很g净，有着薄荷的清爽，香草的可人，还隐约带着巧克力的浓郁。                                                                                                             我听到他的呼x1声慢慢地变得浓重起来，然后反客为主，更加张狂地侵占我的一切。                                                                                                             “喀”的一声，我听见他解开了自己身上的安全带扣，又一声“喀”，他把我身上的安全带扣也解开了。                                                                                                             在我还来不及反应的时候，他已经贴了上来，压得我有些喘不过起气来。                                                                                                             皮质的座椅，在身下发出一些轻微的声响，有点不堪重负，就像是我的内心一样。                                                                                                             “凌墨，这是你b我的。”                                                                                                             李澈的声音在我耳边响起，带了一点喑哑，一别我平常认识的那个李澈，他的声音里面带着一种冲动。                                                                                                             他的唇温热，从额头慢慢地亲吻下去，细细碎碎的，落到唇上的时候，营造出了一片火热。                                                                                                             他的手紧紧地扣住我的腰，然后透过那短外套下的长t恤，往着背部探去，t恤里面除了内衣，空无一物。                                                                                                             李澈的手抚到了我的内衣扣的位子，我也不知道他是怎么动作的，等到我反应过来的时候，我只觉得自己x衣带子一松……                                                                                                             一声尖锐的汽车喇叭声在宁静的小区里面响起，划破了那安逸的氛围，也让我瞬间清醒过来。                                                                                                             李澈的动作也停止了，他左手用力地捶在玻璃上，发出“咚”的一声闷响。                                                                                                             “凌墨，你哭什么，你哭什么！”                                                                                                             他的声音里面带着挫败。                                                                                                             听到他的话，我抚上脸，才发现自己不知道在什么时候已经泪流满面了，连嘴里都尝到了那苦涩的味道。                                                                                                             我到底在哭什么？                                                                                                             我自己也不知道，但是眼泪就止不住地往下掉着。                                                                                                             一辆豪华轿车，一个yu求不满的男人还有一个不知道在哭些什么的nv人，想想还真觉得像是一种讽刺一样。                                                                                                             李澈的呼x1从急促慢慢变到了平缓，然后他伸手开了灯。                                                                                                             从观后镜里面，我能够看到现在的自己有多狼狈，头发凌乱不堪，衣衫不整，嘴唇微肿，最重要的还是红着眼在那边不停滴落泪，这模样怎么看怎么像是一个遭遇了囗囗的悲惨nvx。                                                                                                             李澈慢慢地给我打理着，他的手指慢慢地抚着我的长卷发。                                                                                                             “别哭了，我又没对你有实质上的进展，你什么都没有失去，不是么？”李澈用手指扒拉着我的头发，遇到打结的地方他耐心地用手指理顺，“下一次把头发拉直吧，卷发容易打结，不大好梳理。知道吗？”                                                                                                             他叮咛了一声。                                                                                                             我有些凌乱地点着头，其实我g本就不知道他在说些什么，也不知道自己在应承些什么。                                                                                                             “要不想发生这种事情，下一次直接给我一巴掌算了。”李澈叹了一口气，又道，“知道吗？”                                                                                                             我又点了点头。                                                                                                             李澈的手穿过我的外套，隔着t恤，在我背后m索了一阵之后才把内衣扣子给我扣上。                                                                                                             “你呀！”                                                                                                             李澈的声音里头带了点语重心长，那长长的尾音像是叹气声一样。                                                                                                             李澈给我开了车门，拉着我出了车。                                                                                                             “还不走，打算把刚刚没做完的事情完成么？”李澈看着我问着。                                                                                                             我摇头，刚刚只是意外，清醒之后我当然不希望再发生这种事情了，突然想想自己刚刚也太疯狂了点，如果不是那一声“笛鸣”，也许我就把自己的第一次给交代了出去，而且还是车震……                                                                                                             “现在倒是清醒了。”李澈哼了哼，声调之中似乎有些不满，更多的是点气氛，“那时间还抓的刚刚好。”                                                                                                             也不知道是不是我多想了，我总觉得李澈在说这句话的时候除了无奈之中，更多的是咬牙切齿。                                                                                                             我上了楼，不敢开窗去看李澈是不是还在楼下，因为刚刚的事情似乎还在脑海这种闪现一样，让我震撼不已，没有想到自己有一天居然也会做出这种疯狂的事情、                                                                                                             这件事情算是一件不能说的秘密，对于林淼淼的也不能说。                                                                                                             我在想，如果刚刚没有那一声“笛鸣”，我会不会真的清醒过来，还是由着事态发展？                                                                                                             我不清楚，也许会，也许不会，这个答案我自己也不清楚，如果真的做了之后会不会后悔，这种事情我自己也无法做出一个合理的解答，或者是会后悔的。                                                                                                             就像是李澈说的那样，那时间抓得刚刚好，刚刚好的让我清醒过来，刚刚好让事情不是变得一发不可收拾。                                                                                                             那个人，会是谁呢？                                                                                                             哪天晚上，我又做了一个梦，延续的是那未完的情节。                                                                                                             我和李澈在车上，就像是哪天晚上一样，激情四溢，疯狂无b，在李澈成功进入到堡垒的时候，透过李澈的肩膀，我看到了在那昏暗之中隐藏着一辆车，车灯突然之间亮了起来，刺眼无b。                                                                                                             等到眼睛适应了那光线之后，我发现坐在驾驶座上的人居然是靳骐。                                                                                                             他就这样坐着，手搭在方向盘上，冷冷地看着我和李澈，就像是在看着陌生人一样，那种眼神让人心寒。                                                                                                             我哭着，用力地陲着身上的李澈，那力度却像是蚍蜉撼树一样，一点都没有改变现状，而靳骐的车瞬间到了我的身边。                                                                                                             在和我擦窗而过的时候，我听到他说了一句话。                                                                                                             “凌墨，我不要你了。”他说。                                                                                                             我想伸手拦住他，但是我一伸出手，梦突然之间就醒了。                                                                                                             在凌晨三点的时候，我开始失眠，了无睡意。                                                                                                             如果梦是反映人真实的想法的话，我想，我是这么希望的吧。                                                                                                             连着两个梦都见到靳骐的，我想，我和他应该会遇见，但是我没有想到，那见面会很快。                                                                                                             我之前收到一张请柬，是电台里面一个不算很熟的主持人的。我至今都觉得有些疑惑，明明平常的时候都不常见到的两个人，她怎么会送请柬给我呢，疑惑虽然疑惑，但是我还是包了个红包，去参加婚礼了。                                                                                                             以前的时候还说，红包这玩意是有去有回的，但是其实并不是这样的，很多时候送出去的东西还是收不回来的。                                                                                                             我倒是觉得无所谓，反正我也不靠红包过活，就像是这个嫁入了豪门的主持人一样，据说她找的对象是富二代，家里面贼溜的有钱，光是砸在这婚礼上的钱就已经上百万了，像是我的红包，不过是一个形式主义而已。                                                                                                             反正我也只是打算过去吃一场而已，吃饱喝足，差不多就该回去了。                                                                                                             只是我没有想到我会在婚礼上上遇上了熟人了，而还是一个多年不见的熟人。                                                                                                             靳骐似乎和多年之前没有多少改变，一样的进口灯泡脸，x能优异的让人咋舌，我突然觉得有点同情今天婚礼上的新郎了，两个人站在一起一b，完全不是一个档次的。                                                                                                             你想，一个有点矮又有点胖的新郎找一个帅哥当伴郎，这不是抢自己的风头么。                                                                                                             我远远地瞧见了靳骐，心跳的有点快，但是还不至于到晕倒的地步，呼x1也b平常稍微快了一点点，但是生命指数还算是正常，绝对不会出现突然之间晕倒需要送去医院抢救的画面。                                                                                                             情绪指数也还算正常，至少没有那种找茬地想要上前给这个男人一巴掌的冲动。                                                                                                             有时候太过平静，似乎是不大正常的，但是我相b较像是泼妇一样冲过去把整个婚礼ga0砸的画面，我觉得我还是b较现在这个样子。                                                                                                             就这样远远地看着那个男人，看着他在出现在我面前，然后又和我完全无关。                                                                                                             我去了一趟洗手间，洗完手出来的时候在洗手间门口遇上了靳骐。                                                                                                             他就这么依靠在墙壁上，就像多年之前他依靠在nv生宿舍门口那水杉树上一样，悠闲而又惬意。                                                                                                             我朝他笑笑，然后准备走开。                                                                                                             “阿墨！”他叫住了我。                                                                                                             “有事？”我回头，微笑地问着。                                                                                                             如果是在多年之前，我觉得自己一定没办法这么平静地和他对话，但是没有想到多年之后，我倒是觉得有些介怀了，尤其是刚刚新浪在婚礼上介绍了他的伴郎是多么优秀多么豪门，让在场所有的单身nvx多努力之后，我反倒觉得平静多了。                                                                                                             男人在很多时候都bnv人来的现实，所以在前途和ai情之间，绝大多数的男人都会选择前途而不是ai情，有了前途之后ai情能够收货的更多，也能遇上更好的，这就是男人的现实。                                                                                                             想清楚了这一点，还有什么是不能接受的？                                                                                                             “我们很久都没见了，你似乎变了很多。”靳骐看着我，缓缓地说着。                                                                                                             “恩，都那么多年了，当然是要有点改变的。”                                                                                                             我点头，像是一个老朋友一样和靳骐在厕所外头进行攀谈，一点也不在意这场合是不是不对的问题。                                                                                                             “我都快三十了，要是再不改变，还有什么前景可言！”                                                                                                             “至少你的x还没有下垂！”靳骐也笑了。                                                                                                             我笑容在一瞬间有点僵y，没有想到他会突然之间冒出这么一句来，但是随即地又回复了过来。                                                                                                             “真下流，小心被其他的nv人听见，到时候你可就完蛋了！”我笑说，“今天还有不少媒t在呢，要是明天上了头版头条，也不知道会不会给我的脸打上马赛克。”                                                                                                             靳骐也跟着我抿嘴轻笑。                                                                                                             “阿墨，你这些年来过的好么？”                                                                                                             我觉得旧情人之间最难堪的大概就是这一句了，过的好不好，对于这种前人来说已经是过去式了，也不适合在那么多多年之后还拿出来说事，而且重点是说了还特别没意思。                                                                                                             “还不错。”                                                                                                             我点头，的确还不错的，没有在他离开之后肝肠寸断，也没有ga0出点自杀的名堂来，好吃好喝好工作，再也没有b这个更好的了。                                                                                                             “好了，我不和你说了，我还等着去t验富豪的酒席是不是特别的夸张呢，这种机会不是天天有的。”                                                                                                             我找了个理由，告别了靳骐。                                                                                                             我想我不该和他再呆在一起，因为我知道如果还聚在一起的话，我想我还是会问一个问题，问他多年之前为什么会不告而别，像是一个斤斤计较的nv人一样，我一点也不喜欢这样。                                                                                                             我不回头，也不管靳骐现在有没有再看着我，婚宴场所里面很热闹的，一派好吃好喝的，还有很多我渴望已久还叫不出来名字的食物。                                                                                                             我想，这些是b靳骐还要重要的存在。                                                                                                             “阿墨……”靳骐一如呢喃的声音在我后头响起，“你为什么不问？”                                                                                                             作者有话要说：啊，姐姐我要黑名单鸟……昨晚加班，么有时间写文的悲剧啊……                                                                                                             正文 第二十八章                                                                                                             我听见了靳骐的说的话了，只是没有想到他会主动问出口，我还以为他不会跟我说这件事情，但是没有想到他还主动说起了这件事情，难得他还记得。                                                                                                             我还以为连他自己都已经忘记了这件事情。                                                                                                             还能问什么，我也想不出来，如果是在很久以前，我想我还是有很多问题要问的，但是现在真的不想问了，不想。                                                                                                             我摆了摆手，表示自己不想问。                                                                                                             有什么事情是b较尴尬的？                                                                                                             我想大概就是和旧情人同桌喝喜酒了吧。                                                                                                             我想了想，从口袋里面m出了手机，发了一条短信给了李澈。                                                                                                             他一定是知道的，靳骐回来的他都能知道，怎么可能会不知道他会来参加这场婚宴，难怪之前他要我做好心理准备。                                                                                                             很快的，李澈就回了我的短信，他的短信很简短，就像是他这个人的说话风格一样，带点淡淡的嘲讽意味。